Who You Are Lyrics

Jessie J

I stare at my reflection in the mirrorWhy am I doing this to myself?Losing my mind on a tiny errorI nearly left the real me on the shelfNo, no, no, no, no
Don't lose it all in the blur of the starsSeeing is deceiving, dreaming is believingIt's okay not to be okaySometimes it's hard to follow your heart
Tears don't mean you're losingEverybody's bruisingJust be true to who you are
Who you are, who you are, who you areWho you are, who you are, who you areWho you are, who you are, who you are
Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeahThe more I try the less it's working, yeah, yeah, yeah'Cause everything inside me screamsNo, no, no, no, no
Don't lose it all in the blur of the starsSeeing is deceiving, dreaming is believingIt's okay not to be okaySometimes it's hard to follow your heart
But tears don't mean you're losingEverybody's bruisingThere's nothing wrong with who you are
Yes, no's, egos, fake shows like boomJust go and leave me aloneReal talk, real life, good luck, good nightWith a smile, that's my home, that's my home, noNo, no, no, no, no
Don't lose it all in the blur of the starsSeeing is deceiving, dreaming is believingIt's okay not to be okaySometimes it's hard to follow your heart
Tears don't mean you're losingEverybody's bruisingJust be true to who you areYeah, yeah, yeah

few more hours left...oh yeah..i can feel the pressure...my heart beating so fast..my hands are shaking...
urgh~ finally the day has come, i'm gonna get my result today..
wow 4 days of waiting and stressing ..depression finally will end tomorrow..the Q is will it end with a happy ending or the opposite~

although i keep on telling myself and resisting myself from calling my mum, i eventually ended up pressing the green button of my phone..
it was hard to speak but i did it anyway...without crying...
i can sense that my mum was kinda sad but her voice...
yeah who wouldn't be sad if their children didn't do well in their exam...
my mom didn't mad at all..in fact all this time my parents never mad or angry at me if i didn't do well in exams....
they have faith in me and that's why i never fail in every exams....except in my curriculum or sports...
but now..i'm afraid that i'm gonna disappoint them for the first time...
i don't want it to be happened..
please ...let me through this time....
i'm scared now...
i watched movies and anime's with my roommates ...
i laugh out loud ..yelling ..hitting my friends with pillow..it was a happy moment..for a second, i forgot about everything..then when i stop doing that..my heart beats very fast...

in my thoughts that if i laughed happily today..would i burst into tears tomorrow..
i just had this weird thoughts and feelings...
i couldn't sleep well..could stop thinking that i might cry tomorrow...what is my results?
will i get what i want?
ahhhhhhhh

then i also had this feeling that i will be scold by the lecturer because of the copy paste thing for our assignment....
i only copy the points but i did my very own essay...
oh my...i'm going to have a bad day tomorrow..bad luck..why is everything not turning to the way i want?

" the more i try,the less is working" Jessie J - who you are...

i did try...but again i question myself did i try my best ??
enough for today...

Do not think that love, in order to be genuine, has to be extraordinary. What we need is to love without getting tired. Mother Teresa

You are what you think you are, not what they say, not what they see, not what they hear, and not what they think

wow....
what a day...
i almost cry today...
we had this perjumpaan with our lecturers...well it's about our first semester result.
they wanna know what's our problems and why can't we get good pointers for first semester..
so there's a lot of advice's, open questions ( kena panggil nama juga --paksaan )
when dr sazmal ask is there anyone wanted to speak up or voice out their opinion or whatsoever 
i just stay still sitting there..listen to people complaints...and hoping that my name wont be call out cause if he ask me what's wrong ..i'm gonna tell him everything and my tears will never stop falling...
i thought that just now we gonna get our one on one conversation and i was actually looking forward for it! But it turn out that we gonna have that conversation after we get our result...
gosh!! i have to wait again??
seriously i so tired of waiting cause all this waiting making me crazy and stress...
i couldn't focus on my studies and everything..
there's no one that i could express all my worries to!!!!


at least if i have my one on one conversation with any of the lecturers i'll be feeling ok a bit...
i wanna tell them that i keep on questioning if i choose the right path? should i drop out? should i give up? should i stop or should i change my habit? be confident? not afraid of asking question? don't be so self-conscious? 
i don't know why but there's always something that pulling me back when i actually have the courage to do something..there's always this " thing" stupid "thing" that pulling me back....


maybe that " thing" is me=myself!
i'm the one that thinking much..to shy to ask Q's in front of people...think too much about others ..what's their impression if i did this,did that---when actually people don't care, in fact they'll be glad if you ask something that they scare to ask for....
gosh i should have think about that point! not everybody perfect...in fact nothing PERFECT in this world...btw..perfect is boring... imagine if the world is so perfect in everything ..wouldn't it be dull?? and you don't need to do anything in your life and there's no up's and down's that gonna give a taste of bitter,sour,sweet and hot in your life!!!


nobodies perfect ..bear it in mind....
now i realized that you must not care about others ..just care about yourself...
it's tiring too to take care of others business when you have your OWN problems...
anyway 1 more day left until i get my result....
take this a lesson everyone...
i believe that every dark cloud has a silver lining...
i've learnt my lesson, i never wanted to repeat the same mistake twice...
this is the path that i choose..no matter what i couldn't stop nor turning back..there's no turning back only a  one way direction!


you don't wanna mess with your studies or life right?
cause in the end your the one who would enjoy it or who would regret it!
think wisely in choosing the life that you wanna life...


that's all for today ~.~
   

did i chose the right path???
i keep on questioning myself did i chose the right path by entering science class...
hmmm....now at ASASI UMS--so stressful!!!
i didn't do well in my final exam for semester 1 and i'm totally regret about it...
our lecturer told us that there's quite a few people get 2.5 pointer above and when and there's two person got 2.5 below...and when he say that he's like say it while looking at me...
i was like is he saying about me???
arghhhh...
i have a feeling that i might not be getting 3.0 pointer above...
i wanted it so badly...even if i get exact 3.0 i would be grateful enough and push myself to achieve better result in semester 2 & 3.


how am i gonna face my parents and aunt and uncle???
my god....
why do i keep repeating the same mistake???
i don't want to disappoint my parents..
they have high hopes and faith in me...


i just count my pointer that i targeted ...and it sucks...really below 3.0
i feel like wanna cry but the thing is it's my own fault...
i didn't make the perfect preparation to sit for my exam...
i take it easy and laze around...
but i did try my best not that i play all the time...i studied!!!
is there anything wrong with my ways of study?? did i missed something or lack of  exercises?? 


uhhhh...i really wanted to have 3.0 pointer above....i need this pointers so badly!!! 
this friday is the day ...
i'm so scare and nervous about my result...
what if i didn't get what i expected no no what i WANT???
should i be giving up or work my ass out? 
anyway i just pray to GOD and hopefully i can make my parents proud.  

Based on psychologic study, a crush only lasts for a maximum of 4 months. If it exceeds, you are already in love.


hahah is this true? 
can you imagine it..if you can get along with your crush in that maximum 4 months then suddenly you are madly in love with him/her...


i do have a crush on someone and that feeling never seem to be gone or fade away~
is this count as love? coz it's on and off...
anyway..couple days ago i've decided to forget about him...hahahaha how funny ...
but yet i kept on thinking about him...


it takes me a long time to make this decision ...ahh i don't wanna talk about it....no fun at all...gonna write about my holidays then~ catch up