silence ...shuzzz..verbal ?? whatever...

my goodness,,,
                        what happen to me today??
                                                                  i'm so stress out until i refuse to talk to anyone...........

here it's goes again...me silence + paper .
write down everything i want and show it to others..like i did in school...

actually i don't even know why i refuse to talk or speak...hahha 
                          i always in this state or situation if i get super stress or aRGGHH don't know hw to describe....

anyway....i'm smiling alone like wacko...and blah blah blah blogging and facebooking...sadly no one cares..but  who cares..i'm not a attention seekers...
                let them be..let me be...the way i want just for today...
           DAMN MORAL---because of you i had to neglect my studies...my eveerything...i'm stuck ...SHITAKE,,,,

URGHHHHHHH ....
gonna do it somehow to...,it's important though .....
shitzellllllllllll.............
yeah go on...........

                                        i'm sorry for not talking to my friends too...but after this i'll be alright...
                                i'm just stress out bcoz..it's nearly the due date of my moral assignment and exam soon and i haven't revise anything yet and i just sleep sleep sleep all the time....

It's just me that was wrong...
and i hate that i let myself drifted away like this........

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------that's all adios...

Wow ...what A surprise..3.8.2011


Yeah Happy Birthday to me :)
I'm 18 already hahaha....
yeah finally i can yell and said i'm 18 huhu....

Gosh.
my birthday this year was a whole lot different than last year...
I thought this year will not celebrating my birthday.or i'm going to celebrate it alone...
..there's a story i'll tell u guys one by one,,,,


the day before my birthday..
my parents ignore me 
they didn't want to answer my call and reply my messages.... 
so i just let them be...they purposely doing it...

then when dinner with my friends..hahah
they mention about jogging and how already we didn't go for a jog...
become fat la and so on..
so i suddenly suggest that let's go for a walk tonight...
and sulina say yes with sakinah...lol


hmm stars...
that night..2.8.2011 no stars at all...
and there's lightning all of the sudden but it doesn't rain..
there's this red thing in the skies...it suddenly become red like that..
and so i told sulina and sakinah maybe i will getting bad luck tomorrow..
and they say want to slap me la and say i'm very superstitious like that...

i was wondering why they cough and run out of breathe like that...
but then i thought maybe it's be so long we didn't jog and they didn't exercise and so they easily tired or what...

when we reach my our room...and the door open ...
TaDA...happy birthday to you,happy birthday to you,happy birthday to alexcia,happy birthday to you..
wow!!!

BIG SMILE ON MY FACE..
Tears nearly fall..and surprised ..
sulina & sakinah crying..i was like 'why they cry?' supposed to be i'm that cry..
then sul show me my mum message...
my mum ask me to make a surprise party for me..and ask sul to pinch my face..
gosh that time i cry and very moved...

THAT's THe SWEETEST thing a person had ever do for me...
i quickly call her and my dad...
gosh miss them so much..i'm crying crying outside the room...
really really moved...

then i received many birthday wishes from friends in facebook..
sul's wish was the best if i had to rate...very poetic...
hahah love it seriously...



then the whole day i couldn't stop smiling...
3.8.2011
indeed at meaningful day for me..
in the class they sang birthday song for me..
then my girls keep on teasing me birthday girl la..
i was hoping to receive a text from someone..but never mind...
who cares about that already...( ya rite )

anyway..i hope i get present --a lot when i go back tawau...
yihaa soon i'll be coming home...
27.8.2011..
i coming home dear tawau...
missing you...

my mom bought new tv...and hopefully she buy me new phone which she has bought but still it's her possession ..i hope she give it to me ...
i fantasize about it and even watching youtube search the picture and so on..damn i do get the feeling she won't give it to me...
haha nevermind la..

still 12.9.2011 final exam..counting my days on...
and bio report again damn...

until then adios



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