Sunday, July 31, 2011

See that mad bride???

I'm Like her now...

stress..wanna shout and going to be mad...

Suppose this month should be a happy month for me..as my birthday coming soon..

but reality is i hated this month..August..

I really HATED it...

There's a lot that i concern and worry about

1. My scholarship..my parents aren't by my side to help me...

My uncle and aunt can be my guarantor but some how i don't know if they are eligible to be my guarantor...

2. My study...this whole week..i didn't even touch my books...

really didn't even look at them..seriously I'M DOOM..

I have no idea what the hell i'm doing...so LAZY..

gosh...i'm FAILING ..

i don't want that to happen to me

3. Other matters which include small and big one...DAMN..

I hated this ..i DISLIKE this..I DESPISE this..SAY IT OUT LOUD...

I feel like cursing and swearing to someone face now...

I feel like wanna go to beach--( suddenly thinking about my friend Sully)

I wanna go racing--thing is i don't own a car..

there's so much thing s i wanna do to DE-stress myself but i just couldn't do any..

WTH happen to me???

I'm not me..ALEXCIA GABRIELLA

I'm the opposite me...AICXELA GABRIELLA...

is this AICXELA will do??

becoming lazy...cause ALEXCIA somehow really hardworking ..

maybe i shouldn't spell my name backwards...

gosh..there go the superstitious me-ALEXCIA..

hmm...sigh...hmm

shitakeeeeee

DAMn..

WTF...

u go girl...sorry for cursing so much..

i hate myself..but don't hate me k..

i feel like i'm going to be sick..like sick enough to get me into the hospital..

how i wish there is someone to comfort me...

but yet there's is no one to comfort me

my parents aren't here...

why am i whining so much...

i'm crying now..tears fall down my check...

and i need someone to console me...

my friends aren't here too...

i'm stress out..i hope i won't do anything stupid..no i'm not that stupid--yet.

what the hell happen to me??

i hope everything will go smoothly start tomorrow..please...

i hope there's a ray of hope for me..

i truly needed it and will appreciate it..

if God willing to give me another chance..

haPPY for awhile...

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Yeah I'm done with ICT...

I don't care what i get...but at least it's over for mid term exam..yihaaaa

but sadly....

my Maths....oh stupid mistake...

how could i calculate it wrongly???

hmm never mind we learn from our mistake so i've learnt mine...and i have seek for the lecturer advice...

now i'm ''motivated'' again...

hahah...gambate ayumi chan...you can do it...

oh yeah...i just found out that my friend cried and i didn't know and i keep on making sarcastic statement towards her...

i'm so mean...mean girl...

but then she's so annoying ...i couldn't stand her sometimes...anyway i'm trying to be ''good'' to her...

hopefully she's change soon..pity her though...

hmm i'm sleep..later have meeting at cafe about our lab report...i'm so lazy now..lazy lazy lazy..

don't feel like doing anything...how i wish it was Friday now..

adios all

Yeah i won..

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Happy...
That's the words that describe me today..
Apart from my worries, my sadness and everything, i find happiness in the middle of it...---CRAP BROKEN ENGLISH!!!

K,k,k--26/7/2011
Today we have biology presentation..Guess what..my group won as we present about kingdom of FUNGI...yeah so happy when we won....
At least we won for something that we really did and do it together as a team....
I always like to do presentation regardless what subject ....as long as i be able to talk to people in front!
HAHA....i guess people might think that i'm 'crazy' or 'hyper' because i'm not like 'that' in front of them...
My friends say i have this 'aura' like when i pass or walk in a crowd of people then people might look at me and think that i'm not easily to approach or snob like that...
Because the way i walk kinda proud ..--WHAT???
Anyway,they don't know me that deep yet...
If they hang around with me , i bet they be terrify with my personality...no not terrify but surprise..
I'm unpredictable ..hmm really?? yeah that's what i describe myself...friendly and crazy and bubbly when i'm in a good mood and can be really annoying to you in a good way...don't be afraid with me...i'm not a cannibal who eat human..i'm friendly perhaps over friendly sometime..haha..chill

back to the winning part...yeah we won..hahah
i'm happy with it..but yet there's no present for us..but who care and i don't mind ..as long as our team have won that's okey with me...
at least one of my team member willing to present..he's shy in front of people and couldn't speak properly --means communicate properly..people might not get what he say sometimes...but just now during presentation i'm so proud he could present it...although he startled but it's ok...should polish him again hahah

ohh...not to forget there's a special performance..someone dance ...we all like amazed when saw him dancing....
...
then today we had our last Chemistry Amali..yeah awesome...for this semester only ..
then go back dorm...sleep awhile...wake up gossiping with my girls..have a scrumptious dinner..awesome...
then revise ICT--sucks!!!
hope i won't fail....haven't get any A in my exam...gosh...i'm terrible...

oh yeah hate someone now really hate her...but kinda pity to her too ..

anyway now i'm going off..have to revise ICT...don't want to fail too...this is easy...yeah easy...:P

Finally i realize it ...but can i forget about it...

Monday, July 25, 2011

Is It Really--Love is Pain??

I never experience it before...because me myself don't even know and how to differentiate what it love..

It is falling in love with someone means you in your way to love him/her??

because if it does..then i should stop this feeling i had now...

我知道他不喜欢我，为什么我仍然喜欢他，

hate this feeling but i hate myself more to be in this miserable state...

Yo wake up la...

it's not worth at all...

at least i'm glad i'm blogging something and write everything i felt in my diary..i don't know why but i'm kinda relief...yeah...at last..

i like this...it's kinda sweet somehow...

awwhh...i want you everyday in my life...every girl surely melts when they hear these words come out from their loves one...:)

in the end those who in a relationship will only ask one thing from their couple..please say you love me

when will i get that moment huh??

maybe not now,not nest year or in couple years..but surely if you wait patiently ...i'm sure there's someone for you out there..just wait for your destiny--soul mate ...hmm your TRUE LOVE <3

adios all( thanks for reading this crappy blog which i don't think it's crappy but meaning full somehow)

PiTbUll---wondering--conclusion???

Saturday, July 23, 2011

I OFFICIALLY LOVING PITBULL SONGS...this time it's for real...i love his songs

I don't usually listen to his songs..but lately...i do..because i can't stop banging my head and start to dance..( not a good dancer) ...
really...i'm loving his songs..coz my friend Sulina..keep on playing Pitbull tracks..
can say i'm addicted..yeah...addicted...
it's one of the way to de-stress yourself from whatsoever stress you had in particular time...
we stress about exams...assignments...reports...then test..pop quiz...it's a never ending things for us to do...we don't have enough time...not enough energy , money,and most of all FOODS......
Seriously ( LOL )...the second i get stress or my confidence level going down or i suddenly BLURR of something during lecture..the whole day i'll be stressing out and get moody ..at the end i realized that i'm listening to ALESANA song

feels like wanna shout and scream out loud.....................ARGHHHHHHHH

Whining...that all i do..keep on complaining...
I can actually solve this problem...i should know..and i knew that i will be facing this situation...which is hard for me but actually it's not...it's all depends on how well and mature you are to handle the situation...
If only you ( referring to me) be more SERIOUS i'm sure that you can do well in your studies...
i wonder how the other students handle their life???

i should go serious once a while ..no--should go serious when needed!! that's right!!!

I cannot be playing around all the time...and stressing out

i should TURN A NEW LEAF...

don't be so low confidence...

i've been failing and failing to get the ''A'' that i wish for...

i should not stop getting that A's...

go get it girl...

it's not that hard...

Reedeem yourself from SPM...

should do better than SPM

finish ASASI with good pointers--4.0 flat..

yeah aim for that...

this song makes me cry ..it somehow leave a significant meaning to me...makes me inspire...wish to have ''THE MOMENT'' like he had someday...I pray and I hope for it and it always takes hard work to achieve something..W
therefore i come to a CONCLUSION =HARD WORK + PRAY= SUCCESS

that's it....before that listen to this song...listen to this if you don't you gonna regret it...

AWESOME------like it when they do their Mexican thing...

Adios amigos,...bye~bye..that's all for tonight..

I wish own all of These Stuffs ...~.~

Friday, July 22, 2011

FANCY THINGS..COOL GADGET..WHO WILL RESIST THE TEMPTATIONS AND DESIRE OF OWNING ALL OF THESE COOL STUFFS,,,

I Wouldn't -----in fact i want more and more of it---greedy

now i wish to have only this AWESOME gadget....

so expensive...won't buying this ...haha

wow...so nice..it's green and i like it...but i already have one..

i want this!!! really!! cause...it's touch screen and it's awesome..what am i talking about???

i like this blouse ~.~

wish i will get it some day....hmmmmm why do i fancy green stuffs right now?

lovely shoes...cute..wanna wear it..

hmmmmm...i want i want i want...

these hair band will look good on curly hairs...awhhhhhhhhhh..wish to curl my hair...

hmmmmm i think that's all what i want....for now.......not every of it...just some...but that green blouse and camera ...i desperately want it....hmm cute....

Yeah soon it will be my birthday....

IN 12 more DaYs ---IT'S MY BIRTHDAY..

yeah yeah yeah..come on baby...

How to wish to have and eat my own cake on my birthday....blueberry cake hmmm...been longing to eat it...

hmm 3rd of August..indeed a meaning full day for me..not only it's my birthday..but it's the day i was born...bahahhahha so schematic...

i live for 18 years already...i'm thankful for GOD...

as I've been bless with everything....

I have parents that loves me and always support me in everything ...

they cherish me with love and grant everything that i want...

now that i'm far from them...

and missing them much...funny i never miss them like crazy before...maybe because i'll be alone celebrating my birthday without my family....

alone...

not that i expect people to remember my birthday..just that..how i wish they remember it like really really remember it...not just because of notifications on facebook

it will really mean a lot to me

hmm

i didn't expect much on my birthday..ohh why do i sound so pathetic and desperate..like seeking attention from people to celebrate my birthday??? LOL ask URSELF ALEXCIA!!!

but seriously i didn't expect much on my birthday...

i'm not a Tawau...my home where my family and friends were there celebrating it with me...

i'm at KK...i don't know where's the perfect place to celebrate birthday ...and where's the nicest and affordable cake i can buy--usually parents or friends bought it hahah

it's not gonna be a meaning full day for me..like i always had...

but still ..i have to appreciate that day too...

hmm

until then...

let me list down the things that i want...

later i post it what i want..hahah

ANnoyed damn.........

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

OH MY GOD!!!

I'M SO PISSED!!!

seriously...i'm so pissed yeah repetition...

i have a friend who always repeat everything she said...once or twice it's ok..but when you do it repeat it every-time and when you have done something that really ANNOYED people...it will be totally ANNOYING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hate it,,,

hmm...i'm pity to her actually...cause she's weird..i mean she got a different attitude..and she's very passive...

hmm--she's not the one that can easily mingle around with everyone...

that's why i'm pity her..want to become her friend but yet---

things change..my perception towards her changed...and she changed A LOT!!

lately i heard so many stories about her...bad rumors about her --don't know if i should believe or not..but yet everything that people say about her proven true--- kinda true...

who wouldn't believe it if she did those annoying things in front of me..

of course i would believe it!!! DuH...

now every thing that she did or do or whatsoever really annoyed me and my girl friends...

damn...how i wish she would become the person that i meet for the first time 1 month ago...i don't want to avoid her too or talk bad about her...it's not good and making me sad somehow...

hopefully she change again...should i tell her what she did wrong or just let her be???

gosh me myself don't know what to do...

yeah it's true...if she read this ( which i know she wouldn't read it coz she anti social to internet thing)

she would realize that life is impossible without FRIEND...

in order to achieve success also you need to have FRIEND...

be generous to your FRIEND..

share your knowledge with FRIEND

share your sadness with FRIEND cause your sadness will be gone right away..

share your happiness with FRIEND cause you'll get double happiness...

most important CHERISH your FRIEND

sayonara all..that's all adios

Morning Post ~.~

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Wow..today i wake up very early...
Not that i don't wake up early everyday..just today it suppose to be a special day for me...coz my mum and aunt say they gonna bring me out....go Tanjung Aru and Centre Point...
So this excited girl get up early morning..take her bath and ready her clothes...

Suddenly---
My phone rang---
Mom: Wake up already

Me: yeah of coz...i already mandi

Mom: Wow excited to go out la

Me: yeah...what time u come and fetch me??? :)

Mom: hmm your uncle din haven't wake up...so u no need la follow today...

Me: :( what?? but i want to follow....

Mom: later u going back to dorm right...beside there's not seats for u already...penuh sudah

the car!!

Me: hmmm ya la

Mom: later jie2 esther come also right..so u bring her la go jalan2...at CP there got sales...

Me: yeah like i have lot's of money...

Mom: k la enjoy ur day

Me: enjoy ur's too ( sarcastic ) sob sob..want to cry

suddenly there lightnings and raining although the sun shines brightly today..i wish today rain so that my mom wont go to tanjung aru hahaahahah...bad girl...

anyway the reason i want to follow her is i want to buy things la...go sightseeing and stuffs what a mom and daughter will do ..coz i miss our day together,,,,

that's why i posted in facebook that i miss tawau and wanna go back tawau!!!!

yeah...indeed i miss tawau..back then..i was able to do everything i want...have transport to go to town...become " locco"" also can...crazy---hang out until midnight 1 o'clock arrive at home also can....got friends treat me delicious meal..got mom gossiping with me...got my dad cooks for me..my brothers--owh i miss the fights between us...

i miss my sisters ..all the weekends we always spend together going out shopping and eating and jogging and anything la..huhuhu i want to go back....

coz at KK here..not that i'm not happy just that not as happy as i were at Tawau...

people might ask me--what so best about Tawau..KK better..yeah it's undeniable..

the thing is i don't care KK a big city or whatsoever go so many mall..so updated or what...

at first you might get excited but then u'll miss your hometown...

coz you got so many good memories at your little hometown...u'll get homesick...

aiiii...compared to KK i prefer Tawau more...

hmm why don't i tell you a little bit about my Hometown...

Eii Tawau now advance la...

Got Eastern Plaza and Kubota Square..and much more coming soon...

The yellow building call Sabindo Square---then infront of it Sabindo Plaza...then along the street got so many boutiques...not to forget go Grace Plaza also...

Oh yeah there;s this big food court --open at night...many people will go and eat at night rather than daytime coz there's a different atmosphere during night..

But all of this you can find in KK also..

The thing that you cannot find is it's beautiful scenery at some interesting places...of course not at town la...

First place---Bukit Gemuk Tawau

well at Bukit Gemuk Tawau you'll get to hike...hmm more like you must hike and walk until you tired hahah in order to view the magnificent view of Tawau from here...seriously it worth and if you lucky or make it on time...u'll get to see the sun set --beautiful!!! therefore, you'll need to pass through 7 station if i not mistaken...the fee only cost you about RM2..worthy..

Second place: hmm the beautiful Tawau Hills Park

amazing...i want to jump in now...nahh later i die..coz i can't swim

BBQ--picnic also can...aiya..now missing Tawau much more

In Love or Not??

Friday, July 15, 2011

H to the E to l -L o

Been son long since i ever post anything in this ridiculous blog of mine..well yeah...my blog..

What i'm going to post today is about whether you're in love or not... got crush or not :)

hmmm <3..

how do you know whether your're in love or not??

simple---if you constantly thinking of him or her la...deh...easy

you know what??--love actually can make you go ''gaga'' / going crazy..

i don't know why..but there's this driving force that forces you going crazy when you in love...

1. You will want to see him/ her everyday...

if you sitting at the back and he / she sitting in front of you...you automatically will set your eyes on that person

you love...

2. You will become a stalker...

you will stalk on her social profile online...just to keep in touch or have an update about the person you love...

it's kinda creepy if they know what you doing...that's why i said people who in love will go INSANE..

3. You will remember every single things or words that he/ she told you...

you will become an observer...observe every movement of him/her...

suddenly equip with eagle eyes...ahahahah

4.You get embarrass easily when you talking to him/her...

gosh that will be so funny...

cause you gonna act differently than you usual are when talking with other people...

5. Ha this one really happened to me...You'll get jealous easily when him/her talk to other girls/boys...

damn this one hurts...bad mood occurs to you...feels like wanna smack the other person...

in the mean time swearing him but yet the more you swear the more you love him...

6. If you thinking of him before you sleep..trust me..you'll be dreaming about him/her...gosh..sweet dream about your prince charming and beautiful princess...yaiii sounded like childish....be more mature...!!

it's undeniable--love leads us to fairy tale..it's every girls dreams...

7. You wish to see him more...frequently i guess...yeah everyday.....

somehow when you doing something--you'll think about him/her if the things that you do relate him/her to you...oooh...

8. Your heart beats faster than ever when you're around him...and you be expecting him/her to talk to you..

9. Because of him/her--you'll get stress or cry or mad or happy without any particular reason...

10. Somehow the person that you love/like gave you this weird but cozy feeling when you around them...

hmmm he might become your ''guardian angel''

you'll feel safe and happy just with him by your side....

But there's a difference between like and love..

you can like anyone...but you only can love one person...

to like someone is easy but to fall in love to someone is not as easy as recanting ABC or love quotes...

i like many people and i've fall in love--but yet i never truly love someone so dearly that i wanna make him the only one in my heart.

I wonder and curious about that feeling..wish to experience that feelings...

but when will i meet my one and only true love???

hahah for you girls--i wish you'll find someone special and cherish that person with love...

until then bye-bye...XoXo

Sweet Escape ~