few more hours left...oh yeah..i can feel the pressure...my heart beating so fast..my hands are shaking...
urgh~ finally the day has come, i'm gonna get my result today..
wow 4 days of waiting and stressing ..depression finally will end tomorrow..the Q is will it end with a happy ending or the opposite~
although i keep on telling myself and resisting myself from calling my mum, i eventually ended up pressing the green button of my phone..
it was hard to speak but i did it anyway...without crying...
i can sense that my mum was kinda sad but her voice...
yeah who wouldn't be sad if their children didn't do well in their exam...
my mom didn't mad at all..in fact all this time my parents never mad or angry at me if i didn't do well in exams....
they have faith in me and that's why i never fail in every exams....except in my curriculum or sports...
but now..i'm afraid that i'm gonna disappoint them for the first time...
i don't want it to be happened..
please ...let me through this time....
i'm scared now...
i watched movies and anime's with my roommates ...
i laugh out loud ..yelling ..hitting my friends with pillow..it was a happy moment..for a second, i forgot about everything..then when i stop doing that..my heart beats very fast...
in my thoughts that if i laughed happily today..would i burst into tears tomorrow..
i just had this weird thoughts and feelings...
i couldn't sleep well..could stop thinking that i might cry tomorrow...what is my results?
will i get what i want?
ahhhhhhhh
then i also had this feeling that i will be scold by the lecturer because of the copy paste thing for our assignment....
i only copy the points but i did my very own essay...
oh my...i'm going to have a bad day tomorrow..bad luck..why is everything not turning to the way i want?
enough for today...
urgh~ finally the day has come, i'm gonna get my result today..
wow 4 days of waiting and stressing ..depression finally will end tomorrow..the Q is will it end with a happy ending or the opposite~
although i keep on telling myself and resisting myself from calling my mum, i eventually ended up pressing the green button of my phone..
it was hard to speak but i did it anyway...without crying...
i can sense that my mum was kinda sad but her voice...
yeah who wouldn't be sad if their children didn't do well in their exam...
my mom didn't mad at all..in fact all this time my parents never mad or angry at me if i didn't do well in exams....
they have faith in me and that's why i never fail in every exams....except in my curriculum or sports...
but now..i'm afraid that i'm gonna disappoint them for the first time...
i don't want it to be happened..
please ...let me through this time....
i'm scared now...
i watched movies and anime's with my roommates ...
i laugh out loud ..yelling ..hitting my friends with pillow..it was a happy moment..for a second, i forgot about everything..then when i stop doing that..my heart beats very fast...
in my thoughts that if i laughed happily today..would i burst into tears tomorrow..
i just had this weird thoughts and feelings...
i couldn't sleep well..could stop thinking that i might cry tomorrow...what is my results?
will i get what i want?
ahhhhhhhh
then i also had this feeling that i will be scold by the lecturer because of the copy paste thing for our assignment....
i only copy the points but i did my very own essay...
oh my...i'm going to have a bad day tomorrow..bad luck..why is everything not turning to the way i want?
" the more i try,the less is working" Jessie J - who you are...i did try...but again i question myself did i try my best ??
enough for today...
